Then

I am here left standing
Not even sure of anything
This is a whole new world
And everything just seems so blurred

I will be here for five years
Those five years with new-found peers
All those years lie ahead of me
But after that, who will I be?

Clue

I don't know what to do
All I need is a damn clue
I don't ever want to lose you
But that's where we're heading to

Perfect Image

I don't know how it happened
In a glimpse, it was there
Never had a moment to comprehend
Not a chance to see clear

A perfect image painted before me
The very definition of what perfect should be
Everybody fighting for it
Given to me without even asking for it

But why am I so scared
Why am I even afraid
It's the thought of what will happen
Cause in the future, I know nothing

I want to make the most
But I'm afraid to get hurt
With me knowing you'll not stay
I'll soon get tired of waiting for that day

I Will

I'm afraid to fall for you

I'm afraid you'd leave me too

I'm scared you won't stay

I'm scared you'd go away

Trust is something I'm scared to give you

Cause I know you won't value it, the way I do

Maybe you'll take it for granted

And worse is that you'll break it

I can risk things to be with you

But maybe, I'm afraid to

Things may go wrong

But I'm willing to take the road, even if it's long

Baby, just tell me where we're at

Don't keep me guessing like that

Tell me what you feel 

And I'll see if it's real 

For now, I'll tell you

Yes, I do like you 

And maybe someday we'll happen

But not now, not today

Failure

It is something I fear a lot.

It is something that I'll never dream of experiencing.

It is something I can't afford to be. 

So many expectations and no room for this. 

FAILURE.

In my world where there is no room for failures, I strive hard to become who people expect me to be. But there's one thing I'd like to emphasize. 

I AM NOT PERFECT.

As a person, I have room for mistakes. I learn from mistakes, thus, making me a better person. 

But I can't afford to fail people of their expectations of me. I can't simply give up. I am striving to do good in everything for them and for my self as well.

Donald Trump said, "Sometimes by losing a battle, you find a way to win the war."

It is a quote that motivates me to keep on trying. I don't want to be failure. Who wants to be one?

As a student, a daughter, a friend and a person, I will always strive to do my best in everything. I may not be the best, but I want to be successful. It may pertain to being successful right now or in the future.

In the days that will come, I will be facing more and more challenges that will test me. But all these are only tests to form me as an individual.

Be optimistic. See challenges as temporary tests that is intended to make you realize that life is about trying. We should all try to be our best selves. We should all try to be successful. And though we fail and fall sometimes, it is just right to never give up and stand back up.

People Change

Change is the only permanent thing in this world.

Let's define change.
According to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary:

change /v/

: to become different

: to make (someone or something) different

: to become something else



Everything is capable of change. The environment experiences change, the weather and climate. Hence, climate CHANGE. The fashion trends change from time to time. Everything else changes...as well as people.

Do not be shocked or amazed of what change can bring.
One day, you know this person as someone who's cheerful and jubilant. But then on the next day, that person is suddenly quiet.

A lot of things may have caused this change. A lot of factors may have contributed to this change.
Let's enumerate them.

Number 1. Unfortunate event
    Always. Always. Always remember that everybody is fighting a battle. No matter what kind of battle, no matter how heavy the battle is, no matter how difficult it is to win the battle, everybody has his own obstacle to pass, fears to conquer, mazes to solve and battles to win. Be sensitive of the words you utter and actions you manifest because not everybody is as happy as you are.Maybe circumstances are just being a bitch to that person.

Number 2. Realizations
    That person may have changed because of realizations. He may have realized that he has been so good or bad to be true; thus, the change of heart.

Number 3. He just wants to change
     Maybe life is just about changes. Maybe the world just needs a little bit of diversity. Maybe the person just outgrew his character. Maybe he just wants to change, that's all.

Those are the three things I think that causes change in someone.

Well, why am I talking about change here?
I just have this friend who has changed.

I mean, I'm not rejecting or denying the changes he's gone through. But I guess I just liked the old him better. This is what my problem is. It's not that I fear change. In fact, I'd love to discover new things! SERENDIPITY. It's just that it's not that easy to let go of the character, thing or whatever that you have known for so long and suddenly, boom.

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Things I've Learned In High School

Blogging was never my thing. But recently, I really don't feel like talking to anybody. So I guess, I'll do all the talking here.

I'd like to share to y'all my high school experience. Well, not really. 

Things I've Learned In High School 

Number 1. Make friends

              You really have to learn how to socialize or else you'll be left alone in one corner. You don't have to be popular or something. You just have to make yourself known to others. 

Number 2. Not everybody is your friend even when you think they are

              Out of 10 of your "friends", maybe 4 of them don't like you or they just have something to say about you. Something negative, perhaps. And some just don't say it right in front of you, they really have to say it behind your back. Sounds familiar? Yeah, backbiting. 

Number 3. Be reasonable

              If you don't like people backbiting you, then take criticisms positively. Not really positively. Have you ever heard about CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISMS? Yes. That's what they call it. You use criticisms as guides to be able to somehow change for the better.

Number 4. Prove them wrong

              Whenever people say you can't do it, show them you can. Make those people your motivation to study harder or perform better. 

Number 5. Trust yourself

              This shit is the most important. Believe in yourself. To be able to do number 4, you have to TRUST YOURSELF. Have faith. If you know and believe that you can do it... Oh definitely, you can. 

Number 6. You don't always have to be on top

              Life is not a race. You don't always have to get there first. You don't always have to compete to the extent that someone gets hurt. If you want success, just do your best and success, itself, will chase you. Don't always bear in your mind that you have to be the best, be on top, be No.1. Just DO your best. 

Number 7. Enjoy

              It won't last long. High school? Four loooooooong agonizing years of everything. But when you get to the Senior Year, you wish you were back in Sophomore Year to enjoy every single event, happening. Don't always think of your academics or this or that. Enjoy! Live! 

Number 8. Make Memories

              Make memories. Do stupid things. Enjoy your high school life. You'll get "HS Life" only once(for four years, though). Cut class. Vandalize. Fail. Whatever. One day, you'll look back and laugh at everything you've done, wise or stupid. 

Number 9. Know who your true friends are

              They always say that your high school friends are the friends who get to stay forever. Then, know who they are. It really doesn't matter if it's one or two or twenty. Make sure you have at least one. And make sure that if you go your separate ways after high school, you'll keep in touch and stay as you are. 

Number 10. Lastly, appreciate

               Sometimes, we just have to sit back and look around. There are so many reasons to be happy. And always thank those 'reasons' for being reasons to be happy. Simple gestures can mean a lot. Appreciate the value of friendship. Appreciate the value of knowledge. Appreciate the work your teachers do for you. Appreciate all the moments you and your friends spend together. Appreciate yourself. Appreciate life as it is.

At sixteen (Holy macaroons. I'm 16.), I might not know what life really is. But one thing I'm sure of is that life has its ups and downs. One day you're up there and the next day you're down low. But always remember that when you're up there, keep your feet on the ground and when you're down low, hold on and keep climbing. You'll get there, eventually. 

First entry. Didn't edit this yet. Bye now. xx -K